omg i havnt written in forever. ive been kinda busy obviously. wow. summer was ok i guess. school is blah. wow it has been like 5 months! what is up wit me lol well now im updating. lol well surprisingly i have nothin to say. lol. bye!

~Alexis~

sorry i've been ranting about stupid things but its just hard ya know. um... yeah right now life isnt the best for me. Grason broke up with me. 13 months... gone. why is everything happening right now he couldnt wait? i just dont know what to do anymore. but i guess thats life shit happens and u cant do shit to stop it.

~Alexis~

u know what pisses me off. stupid people who cut themselves for stupid things and who want attention SOOO bad they'll do anything. my brother fuckin killed himself and i wish i could just go back and see how miserable he really was i didnt have n e idea he hated his life. jesus Thomas why'd you do this. i am so mad at myself and at him. how could i not notice my own brother was gonna commit suicide. how could he be so selfish. how am i living and he's not. i cant get over it. this stupid bitch girl at school was all showing off her cuts to everyone and i just wanted to punch her. its not a fuckin everday thing. i am ranting but its true who doesnt agree with me. how can someone cut themselves and go around showing them when my brother didnt tell anyone. how the fuck. sorry i just miss him so much. i have to go.

~Alexis~

hi guys sorry i havnt written in a while my brother died so i've been busy. thats all i have to say

~Alexis~

im back from NEW YORK CITY! well lesee. Valentines Day Grason came to my house before i left for school and took me out to breakfast, lunch and dinner. he has a friend up in new york that hooked us up w/ a hotel room. 2 nights to ourself and one party night. i got so drunk i dont really remember what happened the last night. i love my baby. it will soon be our thirteen month anniversery. holy shit. yeah i came home today my mom was sooo pissed cuz i never told her i was leaving. hehe. dads back from the hospital. that makes my week even better. holy shit i am so happy. hey i found another friend... actually she found me. lol. i listened to bayside and motion city soundtrack. bayside was REALLY good and motion city soundtrack was pretty good too. not as good as bayside though. they'r good. not as good as Panic! At The Disco though. well i guess ill go.

~Alexis~